That's Why He Chose Us

During an email conversation last week, my BFTP wrote me the following:

"Often when we are at our weakest God is able to work his strength more effectively through us. I guess God isn’t in the business of using overly educated, arrogant self-dependant people. He would much rather use broken, wrecked, shattered and exhausted people which is why he has evidently chosen to use us. LOL."

I laughed out loud the same way he did, but I knew there was so much truth in what he had said. Being weak is not a bad thing when it means we can allow God to work His strength through us.

Contrary to the belief of some, God doesn't need us little humans to do His work. Our involvement is not necessary to show how amazing He is; in fact sometimes our very involvement is what has given God a bad name in the first place. However, God wants to involve us in His plan of salvation. His strength is shown even more clearly when we are weak. His wisdom is explained in all its profundity when our foolishness is exposed. His love is expressed all the more fully when we realise just how pale in comparison our own human attempts at love really are.

I have had a problem with faith and trust this past year. The irony is that I didn't have a problem with actually having either of those things; my problem was with what I put them into. I had faith in situations that things would work out, despite all the evidence to the contrary. I had faith in people that they would keep to their word and that I could rely on them, when all my previous experience and all their previous behaviour told me otherwise. I trusted in myself to make the best decisions for me and had faith that as long as I prayed now and then, things would be OK. How wrong I was.

I am slowly becoming more and more painfully aware of my weaknesses and just how little I can rely on my own weak human nature to make things right in my life. I think I already knew that, but I believed that I was intelligent and emotionally intuitive enough to do things on my own and to make wise decisions. While I think those things are still true to an extent, I am now aware that I can only do such things with God's direction, with His guidance, wisdom and strength. I have messed things up too many times by just trying to manage everything on my own, in my arrogance and rebelliousness.

So I am trying my absolute best to just stop being so stubborn with struggling on my own and just let go of things. I am going to try and give all my problems and decisions to God as much as possible every day and start relying on Him the way He wishes I would. God knows me better than I know myself, so who better to guide me through life than He? Thank God He uses broken, wrecked, shattered and exhausted people, otherwise He really would have no use for me.