Disappearing Months and Motivation

Where on earth is this month going? I think August fell down the back of my sofa, but September is fast disappearing like a supply of Weetos does if it is within my reach. I totally missed the birthday of one of The Sisterhood on Friday, completely forgetting to send Head Sister a birthday message. It was another friend's birthday on Saturday, NY Guy's yesterday, Big Sis and Bro-in-Law's anniversary is on Wednesday, my cousin's birthday will be on Thursday and The Mrs. has hers on Friday. An abundance of Christmas babies! :o)

I can't believe it is almost October. The only good thing about time speeding forward is that I only have three more days till payday (you don't know how much I'm looking forward to that) and that at the end of October, we get back that hour that Spring stole and I get to go and see Maxwell live with Miss BG! Other than that, October is probably one of my least favourite months, although I'm not sure exactly why.

Further to the utter pointlessness of my existence yesterday (when I did pretty much nothing of any value to anyone all day), I've decided I need to set some goals for this week, to try and push me into action. I have started feeling the same feeling of complete body fatigue that I felt just before I started on my medication, where every movement seemed to require a huge effort and my very demeanour and body language visually announced my depression even though my mouth didn't speak it. I'm putting up the week's goals on here, just so I feel some sense of accountability, even though no-one reading this would actually know whether I had actually followed through with my intentions and I could probably just make up stories of my sterling achievements week after week. But delusion and lying to myself, as well as others, just isn't my style. Frankly, I'm too lazy to front, lol, and I don't even think I have enough imagination at the moment to be that creative. :o)

OK, so, my goals/intentions for the week. These are little things, just small changes that I need to make, or habits I need to start forming again. I'm purposely starting small because setting my expectations too high in my current mind state is doomed to failure. But there are plenty of simple, manageable changes I can make that will hopefully give me the impetus I need to get momentum going.

1. Prepare lunch the night before for day after. Do it as soon as you get home, if necessary. You know once you've eaten dinner and sat down to chill out, you won't be likely to move again for the rest of the evening!
2. Apply for as many of the jobs you saw that are closing this week as possible.
   
3. Sort out your clothes and start putting away summer stuff. Make things a little more organised so that you aren't rummaging through a jumble of clothes in the morning!
4. Get enough sleep. You probably need a couple of early nights to make up for the weekend's lack of sleep. Then get into the habit of trying to get down to sleep at a similar time each night. Turn the laptop off well before hand. None of this falling asleep with it on your bed!
5. Try and go to the gym on Thursday morning before work. This definitely means an early night on Wednesday.
6. Go for a SB appointment and do food shopping Thursday night, if possible.

I think I'll leave it there. I don't want to get over-ambitious and then feel rubbish when I don't meet my unrealistic expectations! It's a start, at least. I can't carry on being so unproductive, lazy and demotivated. So, aside from yesterday, I'm trying to start the week as I mean to go on. Let's see if it works...