The Week in Review #16

Knowing I had only four days to work this week probably made the week at work a little easier! I had the day off today and had some errands to run. Luckily (or unluckily), it was a lovely 21°C and beautifully sunny, so I was out and about with my sunnies on. On the bad side, I had forgotten how warm weather and rushing around doing stuff is not a good combination. I get a sweaty brow when I'm hot and bothered...isn't that a nice image for ya?? :o)

I've blogged a little bit more than usual this week, so this week's review will probably (I say probably - I do like a good tangent!) be less essay-esque than usual! Apologies if I repeat myself.

So, the week that has brought us to the fine old month of May! Here goes:

• I still haven't heard about that internal position I applied for. I am hoping this just means that HR are crappy and slow and disorganised and not that I was pitiful at interview (granted, it's a possibility). However, either way, you'd think they would have at least informed me of the outcome by now. I am just going to forget it happened and then any good news would be a nice surprise. Just forget I even mentioned it, ok? :o)
  
  
• Work was actually ok. Quite busy, but sort of quiet. Miss T, true to form after a weekend away at the seaside, brought us back a stick of rock each. Mini-Me was back to work and that was a relief. We've had a slight lull in activity in some ways, so in response to her asking "What do you want me to do?" a few times a day, I had to give her a little word on inefficiency. Lol! Just what you want from your colleagues (!) Our lovely management seem to want to make cuts where they can, so I don't want to risk losing her because they think she has nothing to do!
  
  
• Me and the Boy had an argument. Yay! Just what I always wanted (!) Things have been difficult lately and I haven't been enjoying the lack of contact. I realised this has been building up a while and I think I gave him a bit of a shock with the mini tirade I came out with. He responded with some strong words himself, that I wasn't too happy about. No-one likes to have their flaws pointed out to them. We are not talking for a while. I'm unwilling to back down right now, mainly because I think I had very just cause for my irritations and because I think his response to it and reasoning was pretty poor. I don't think he realises how much this has got to me. I get the impression he thinks I am being irrational and will come to my senses once this blows over, when I am actually questioning whether we are really going to work and whether the end of our road is nigh. *Sigh* Ooh, unintentional rhyme! Thank goodness for humour. It's laugh or cry at the moment.
  
  
• The eBay obsession continues, with a lovely purple dress arriving for me today and a nice wetsuit-material soft case for my laptop. The little things are all-important right now.
  
  
• I've done a little bit of soul-searching this week, as I suppose I always do. I'm a definite work-in-progress (hence my blog title) and the past two years have made me painfully aware of my weaknesses, insecurities and mistakes. While trying to improve and work on some of those things, I'm trying not to dwell on the past, but it can be tough at times coming to terms with the things I've done wrong or the parts of the person I've become that I'm unhappy about. I think I realised most that the best person to make things better for is yourself. Being told you need to change X, Y and Z isn't always easy to hear, even when you are already well aware of those things. But changing those things because you want the approval or love of the person who pointed them out, isn't necessarily the best motivation. The things I need to change, I am going to change for me. Anyone who claims to love me and be there for me, but is only interested in the 'final' product and isn't willing to stick out the journey with me, well, I can pretty much do without them. It's a blessing to have even one or two people who think I rock, regardless.

I said I'd keep this brief and once again I have proved not to be a woman of my word! Lol! Brevity is not really one of my strong points. I'm looking forward to the weekend, because it's a three-day one for us Brits. Hopefully the weather is going to hold out for the next few days, as Lolly is coming to stay and we have fun and games planned. We do have a plan B already laid out, though. If the weather is pants, we stay in PJs and have a DVD-fest! It's always a winner. :o)

May is here and that's always good news for me (the month of my birth and the host of two lovely bank holiday weekends, bookending the month). I hope your week was full of new experiences and lots of laughter. Even if it wasn't, there's always another one, just around the corner...