On Lethargy, Lack of Enthusiasm and Listlessness

I don't have the energy or motivation for anything much, lately. It has been a struggle just to get through most days at work, so as soon as I get home, I languish and just want to get in bed. I don't seem able to muster enough creativity to write anything. Even with the Friday Fill-In prompts, I've not managed to complete all the answers and instead had them saved as drafts until I could finish them.

I've been torn between feeling lonely and feeling the need for company, but at the same time feeling reluctant to be around anyone or talk to anyone and wanting to withdraw from people. I don't just experience this in person, but over the phone and even online. I've stopped reading blogs because I can't seem to summon enough mental or emotional energy to get involved in anyone else's life or thoughts. I'm reluctant to even talk to friends on the phone because it seems to sap me of any energy I have just stringing sentences together. I know those close to me are a little concerned at times and that makes me even more reluctant to talk and reveal just how lethargic and low I am.

My life feels like it's on pause at the moment, or at the very least is playing in very slow motion. Things are the same day after day and there doesn't seem to be an end to it. I had another day or two off work after calling in sick because I was exhausted and feeling pretty much like I would be incapable of getting through the day. My boss told me that the number of sick days I've had was picked up by HR and that I needed to have a meeting to discuss it. I was anxious about the meeting and had to try quite hard not to cry while I explained my perception of my situation at work and how working at a level that I'm not being paid for was causing me stress. I wasn't obliged to tell them anything about my medical history or current health, but they advised that if I was to share any information that could help explain the situation, then it might facilitate their understanding of it and thus ways in which they could assist me. I stated that I wanted to speak to my doctor before I discussed anything in detail. Overall, the meeting went well. It was quite relaxed and I didn't feel uncomfortable or threatened, but the official nature of it accelerated my realisation that I have to do something to improve my state of mind and general health for my own sake as well as for those around me. It's odd starting to feel motivated to improve my feeling of demotivation, but I can't go on feeling so low.