Blast From The Past

I arrived home today to find I'd received a message, a bolt out of the blue, from a person from my past: an old boyfriend with whom things had ended somewhat awkwardly (my fault), our relationship and communication coming to an end rather abruptly. I have sometimes wished that we could have at least remained on friendly terms and have often thought of him and wondered how he was and how life was turning out for him.

The message began with "It's been nearly a decade..." and I was astonished to realise that it really has been. 10 whole years have passed since I last heard from him. I had pretty much written off the idea that our paths would ever cross again and hoped that he at least didn't think ill of me. He was a great guy and although we were very young when we met, he was one of those people that I had just connected with, in a way that doesn't happen especially often in life. Imagine my surprise when I read this unexpected message, wondering how I am, hoping that I am well and wishing me all the love and happiness in the world. There was no mention of any negativity from the past and no real suggestion of any further communication in the future. Just a simple message wishing me well and a little touch of nostalgia. He said some wonderful things about me and I was so taken aback, my eyes welled up and I immediately felt the tears start to fall.

It's weird that you can make such an impact on someone early on in life, even after making mistakes, that can transcend time. Maybe we will always be stuck in each other's minds as how we were 10 years ago, when we were younger and carefree, full of lust for life and hope for the future. For a second, I remembered how I was back then and wondered where my positivity, sense of adventure and love for all things fun had gone. I miss that girl and need to get her back.